It’s finally Halloween, which means Christmas is coming! EEEEEK.
I love everything about Halloween: the costumes, parties, sweets (especially the sweets), literally everything!
All week I’ve been getting into the Halloween spirit, and came to realise that I think I suit green eyes.
But anyway, I actually have a bit of a story for you today, guys.
I went shopping earlier in my village and I was so exhausted that for a good 5-10 minutes I’d actually FORGOTTEN it was Halloween. I went into the Co-Op to get some bits and bobs, and as I was walking to the till I was in my own little world with my head down digging through my purse trying to find something. I got to the till, looked up and was greeted by a vampire. Not going to lie, I absolutely shat myself. Looking up to be greeted by a vampire when you least expect it is pretty damn scary.
And by the look on his face it looks like I scared him, too. The poor thing looked terrified, I was so embarrassed!!
We laughed it off, but I could feel my face burning with the embarrassment. Hopefully my make up hid it, at least a little bit.
I hope everyone has a great Halloween, and that it’s a lot better than mine! 😛
See you tomorrow with another one.
So today I’ve just been having one of those days. I feel really down in the dumps about everything. Especially my blog. I have writer’s block at the moment and it’s so frustrating. So I thought instead of writing about something that I feel is fake and wouldn’t normally write about, I’d let you know how I’m feeling and that I am human just like everyone else.
The past few days I’ve been feeling really run down and under the weather. I have no idea why, but I’ve had no energy at all. The things I’d normally do on a day-to-day basis like take Alexa for a walk and keep on top of the housework, I’ve just not been able to do. I’ve literally just been lounging around under a cover eating takeaways, and that in itself makes me feel like a sh*t mum.
My sleeping pattern is all over the place right now, almost like I have jet lag but I haven’t travelled anywhere. I only get to sleep between 5-7am, and that’s if I’m lucky. Whilst having a toddler who’s up early, let’s just say it’s not healthy. I’m breaking out in spots from the stress and exhaustion of looking after a two-year-old whilst on only 2-3 hours sleep a night.
Long story short, I just haven’t been myself lately. The “hate” has been getting to me a lot more than normal, I feel like curling up in a ball and crying all the time, I’m running on zero energy and something is causing me pain but I have no idea what it is.
I was in absolute agony this morning, doubled over from pain in my lower stomach/groin. I tried to eat my dinner and just brought it straight back up. Let’s just say that was absolutely disgusting and almost put me off ever eating again. Yuck.
I’m beginning to wonder whether being so run down and exhausted is having an affect on my body physically. This is so not fun, guys.
I’m in the situation right now where all I want is a good cry, a big cuddle and lots of chocolate and films. But I think everyone has these days, and it really does suck. We just have to try and remember that tomorrow will be a better day!
I’m sorry this is such a down blog post, but I want to keep it real with you guys instead of pretending I’m upbeat, happy and bubbly all the time. I have bad days too, just like everyone else, where I just don’t feel like I’m good at anything, like I’m just one big walking failure. But when my “bad day” is over, I realise that I’m trying hard and doing the best I can, and in my opinion that’s the best thing you can do in life.
I’ll be back tomorrow with my usual upbeat posts, I promise 🙂
Mink coloured bomber jacket with badges – http://www.asos.com/asos/asos-ultimate-bomber-jacket-with-badges/prd/7015594?iid=7015594&clr=Mink&SearchQuery=mink%20bomber%20jacket%20with%20badges&pgesize=30&pge=0&totalstyles=30&gridsize=3&gridrow=3&gridcolumn=3
Black parka with faux fur hood (lovely!) – http://www.asos.com/asos/asos-ultimate-parka/prd/6324400?iid=6324400&clr=Black&SearchQuery=ultimate%20parka%20black&pgesize=5&pge=0&totalstyles=5&gridsize=3&gridrow=2&gridcolumn=1
So, here we go! I’ve left pictures so you can see what they look like and links too just in case you want a further nosy. I know I would. I love a good nosy!!
So I’ve been asked to do this challenge and it does look pretty fun! I wasn’t entirely sure what was actually in my bag until I emptied it to show you. So, here goes!
Here’s what I found in my bag:
In my bag I have:
A tub of unopened Sour Cream & Onion Pringles
Orange Lucozade which also hasn’t been touched
My favourite purse which I think I got from Primark
Bristows Extra Firm Hold 24hr hair spray
So…Kiss Me? Perfume
A Wispa bar
Sinex nasal spray (I don’t know why I have that in there)
A train ticket
Tickets from Joe & Caspar Hit The Road
An “Extra-Strong” umbrella (I haven’t even used it yet)
A pretty bent headband which I also got from Primark
St. Jude Medical contraption thingy.
Let me explain the last one. A few months ago I had an operation where I had a loop recorder put into my chest to permanently record my heart rhythm. This box is for when I have a symptom, e.g. palpitations, and so I turn it on and hold it over my scar so it highlights the recording whilst I’m having symptoms.
I do think it’s pretty cool, it almost feels like I have a mechanical heart… Yeah, I’m weird.
So, there we go! I hope you enjoyed it 🙂
I haven’t actually done one of these before, and I’ve seen a ton of other blogger/vloggers do it and it looked pretty fun.
It’s pretty lame that I was excited to do this but yeah, I have no life etc etc 😛
This is just a thank you blog. I cannot believe I have reached 85,489 views already. You have no idea how much this means to me.
It may not seem like much to some of you, as plenty of successful bloggers/vloggers have millions of viewers rather than thousands, but to me this is SUCH A BIG DEAL.
I haven’t even been blogging a month I don’t think, or maybe just slightly over? I’m not sure. I thought I’d get a couple of hundred if I was lucky.
You guys really do blow my mind. I’ve never received so many lovely comments on what I love doing. Of course, I get “hate” too, but I really don’t mind. Not everyone is going to like what I write about, everyone has their own tastes and opinions etc. But the fact the supports out ride the haters by thousands is insane.
Right now, it’s just a hobby.
I’ve always been the person who’s never known what they’ve wanted to do with their life. I’ve been very indecisive, I didn’t even know what to take in my exams or what to study at college.
Now I’ve found it. THIS, is what I want to do. THIS is what I love. And the fact that you love it too is just absolutely amazing. I’m determined that one day this will change from a hobby to a career. It won’t be yet, as I’ve only just started, but that’s my goal in life.
What’s also blown my mind, is that the majority of my viewers aren’t in the UK. They’re actually in South Africa. I may sound stupid but I guess it hadn’t really sunk in at first how many people all over the world would be able to see it. I still expected to have the most viewers in the UK.
South Africa is 1st place, UK is 2nd, and France is 3rd. I’m typing this with my mouth wide open. Yikes!
My life isn’t full of exciting things, it’s just normal, day-to-day things that almost everyone does. I try my hardest to make things as interesting/funny as possible. Basically I’m just a goofball, that ends up doing stupid things without realising. Almost every normal day-to-day thing has a funny side to it because I’m just so clumsy/goofy. I never even think of what I’m going to write, most of the time it just flows out of me and I’ve no idea what reaction it will get. I’m not sure if that’s the “correct” way to blog.. But it’s my way.
Once again, thank you so so much for all of your support! I’ll try my best to keep you entertained with my future blogs, but remember I am human. They might not all be upbeat and funny. Sometimes I share my bad days, too. I’m starting to gabble now so I’ll leave it there. Just remember how much I appreciate you, because without you I wouldn’t be doing what I love.
I’ll see you tomorrow for another one!
Lots of love,
UPDATE: BY THE TIME I’D WRITTEN THIS I’D GOT ANOTHER 1,300. HOLY CRAP. THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH.
Oh my Lordy Lord, WHAT A DAY!!! I know it’s Tuesday now so I’m a day late, but I’m not gonna lie I got home about 12am and was a bit drunk. So I obviously didn’t want to risk writing a blog while under the influence, as that could have been horribly embarrassing. Just like when I found out this morning that I’d tweeted Joe saying “come outside I’m cold and drunk :(” ….. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!
That tweet is now deleted, hopefully before he saw it… I don’t really drink anymore so the wine went to my head pretty quickly. *facepalm*
Anyhoo, I hopped on a train to Liverpool with Nicole, extremely tired (I had hardly slept the night before) and excited. I was wearing my favourite outfit: Black leather leggings with my black “belly top” which I let rest on my shoulders so it didn’t actually show any belly.. (I later found out that it did in my picture with them so I had to blur it out, YUCK) And my leather jacket with brown leather ankle boots. I was basically the leather girl of yesterday.
I got to the theatre, and arrived at the stage door (I stupidly didn’t realise that I’d gone to the WRONG DOOR) as I saw a group of hysterical 14-15 year olds and thought that this is where I must be.
I couldn’t understand why they were freaking out so much because I couldn’t actually see anything. Then I happened to look up, and saw that the window was open, I looked at Nicole with an “OH S**T” expression on my face, and legged it round to the front entrance where we was supposed to be because I was a little embarrassed of the fact they could see me looking like a right lemon. I probably looked like I was someone’s bored older sister that had been dragged along. Awkward.
Inside I was just as excited as everyone else, but I was trying not to show it as I would have actually looked like an idiot. A full on Rodney.
Finally after about an hour of queuing, I went upstairs and stood behind the backdrop that’s used for their photos. I was actually shaking with nerves because my two favourite people in the world who are also my inspirations were stood RIGHT THERE.
I was instantly greeted with a great big hug off Caspar and a pretty sweet cuddle off Joe. Who just so happened to smell amazing and it was extremely difficult not to nuzzle my nose into his neck just because he smelt so good. (Hehe, sorry Joe!)
Now, after this moment, I was slightly dazed because, you know, I’d just finally met Joe and Caspar. I had my pass taken off me and was told they were going to sign it. YAY.
I walked away, and Nicole was doing “the grin” at me, like she knew something I didn’t. I immediately thought something embarrassing had happened. Like maybe I’d stood on their toes without realising (I do that a lot when I’m nervous), or my leggings had fallen down or something. She wouldn’t even tell me until we got outside so I was basically a jittering mess thinking all sorts of embarrassing things.
I glared at her and she smirked at me. That immediately rang alarm bells in my head. So I gave her the impatient “I’M WAITING” look, and she finally told me. Well, let’s just say I nearly fell off the step with shock. I laughed and said “you’re joking, right? ME?! Nah, I don’t think so.”
I’m not going to tell you exactly what she said, because I still don’t know whether she’s winding me up or not, but let’s just say I was a happy chappy for the rest of the night. All I kept thinking was “ME! Of all the people there, me!”
I was so chuffed that once I’d sat down and had a cigarette to settle my nerves (horrible habit, I know, and I AM trying to stop) I rang my mum and gabbled down the phone about how amazing it was so far. Me and my mum have a very close relationship, she’s more like a best friend to me so I always give her juicy details.
Afterwards we went back inside and upstairs to the lounge.. LOUNGE! And we went to the bar. I treated us to a bottle of wine which we pretty much finished before the show started (oops). IT WAS THE NICEST WINE I’D EVER TASTED OKAY!
Our seats were up in the circle, so I was a bit worried that we wouldn’t be able to see very well.. But oh wow, it was the most amazing view!!! (The camera doesn’t do it justice, believe me) and I was super excited to see the exclusive show and ate a ton of chilli & lime crisp, which everyone could smell except me and Nicole. The wine was beautiful, and the crisp were yummy, but if you mixed them (have a crisp and then a sip of wine, or the other way round), the after taste was like sick. It was AWFUL. So until the crisps and wine were gone I was cringing and pulling all kinds of faces at the disgusting after taste, and Nicole did her fair share of gurning too. I bet we looked very attractive.
Our view was so good that in the part of the show where they dim all the lights and Joe and Caspar get torches out and shine them into the crowd, Joe shone his torch directly into my eyes and practically blinded me (it was like I had just looked at the sun) and he kept it there for a minute. I wasn’t sure if he could properly see or not so I waved and he instantly waved back. I was even more chuffed than I was before :D.
Not going to lie I was pretty much a tipsy fan-girl at this point. Now that I’d met them I was able to let all my excitement out because they wouldn’t be able to tell it was me! Result.
Parts of the show we were allowed to film, which I did of course, like the live brain freeze challenge. Bloody brilliant!!!
Obviously, the majority of the show we weren’t allowed to film because it’s only being shown on tour itself, nowhere else. Some of it was only being shown for last night’s show especially. I feel so lucky. Anyhoo, this is pretty much the end of the blog, but just to finish off I thought I’d show you what the end of the night was like. (Cringe!)
That’s it for now, folks! I hope you enjoyed today’s blog 🙂
I did a lot of cringing whilst writing this, I’m not gonna lie. But I had an absolutely amazing day! I’d do it all again if I could!
This blog is a bit of a moany one I guess. It’s just been one of them days!!!
I’m the sort of person that is cranky with zero energy if I get less than 6 hours sleep. I need my sleep and that can be a difficult task when you have a two-year-old.
I knew from the moment I woke up it was going to be a “bad day” as I was exhausted from Alexa keeping me up half the night, and I just felt down in the dumps.
I dragged myself out of bed, shuffled into the front room (my mum was kind enough to take Alexa for a couple of hours) and was instantly greeted with a tantrum. Greaatttt. Looks like I’m not the only one that’s cranky today.
Alexa ran up to me, hit me and screamed “SHOEEEEE” in my face. She was having a meltdown because she couldn’t find her pink wellies. I instantly thought to myself “this is going to be a loooong day”.
It was really difficult to keep Alexa awake throughout the day with her having such a disturbed sleep last night. I took her for a walk, which she enjoyed, but as soon as we got back she immediately had another tantrum because… well, because she COULD I guess. I have no idea what goes through her mind half the time. What I do know is half the time she makes me want to smack my head against a brick wall.
Anyway, Alexa was happily playing with her pencils (drawing on everything BUT the paper I gave her… *sigh*) so I thought I’d get some stuff printed off for tomorrow. I lugged my printer into the front room and placed it on the coffee table, plugged it in and set to work. Not the best idea considering Alexa is obsessed with pulling wires out of things because she knows it winds me up. Whenever I’m working on my laptop or trying to print something, even just trying to charge my phone or dry my hair, Alexa will come running up and unplug whatever I’m using at the time. ARGH.
I spent most of that time lunging over my printer to stop her from unplugging it while it downloaded and updated (I haven’t used it in a LONG time). It looked like I was doing complicated yoga. Very uncomfortable considering I’m as flexible as a plank of wood.
Finally 8pm came around (THANK THE LORD) and I gave Alexa a warm cup of milk to help her sleep, as normally it sends her straight off. Nope. Not this time. Its 9:45pm and she’s still awake, causing havoc and throwing a tantrum every 5-10 minutes. All I’m thinking right now is “SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE”.
I’m going to leave it there, get back to little miss trouble maker and GET HER TO SLEEP. I’m determined to do it before I have a mental breakdown. There’s only so many tantrums one can cope with in a day, and she passed that limit this morning.
Oh and in case you haven’t noticed, I am a bit of a moaner. Moaning does you good once in a while 🙂
Today I thought I would share with you some of my most precious memories caught on camera.
These are just a few snippets of how great my life is and how much I appreciate the people in it. Of course, there are many more precious moments caught on camera, but there is no way I could show you all of them. So here are a few of my favourites.
The one that is super-special to me is the picture of my granddad with Alexa. I miss him terribly and I’m so glad Alexa got to meet him before he passed away. He will be forever in our hearts and Alexa will grow up knowing what an amazing man he was.
I hope you enjoyed this little post, and I’ll see you tomorrow!