Hey there, Sparklers!
So today I’ve just been having one of those days. I feel really down in the dumps about everything. Especially my blog. I have writer’s block at the moment and it’s so frustrating. So I thought instead of writing about something that I feel is fake and wouldn’t normally write about, I’d let you know how I’m feeling and that I am human just like everyone else.
The past few days I’ve been feeling really run down and under the weather. I have no idea why, but I’ve had no energy at all. The things I’d normally do on a day-to-day basis like take Alexa for a walk and keep on top of the housework, I’ve just not been able to do. I’ve literally just been lounging around under a cover eating takeaways, and that in itself makes me feel like a sh*t mum.
My sleeping pattern is all over the place right now, almost like I have jet lag but I haven’t travelled anywhere. I only get to sleep between 5-7am, and that’s if I’m lucky. Whilst having a toddler who’s up early, let’s just say it’s not healthy. I’m breaking out in spots from the stress and exhaustion of looking after a two-year-old whilst on only 2-3 hours sleep a night.
Long story short, I just haven’t been myself lately. The “hate” has been getting to me a lot more than normal, I feel like curling up in a ball and crying all the time, I’m running on zero energy and something is causing me pain but I have no idea what it is.
I was in absolute agony this morning, doubled over from pain in my lower stomach/groin. I tried to eat my dinner and just brought it straight back up. Let’s just say that was absolutely disgusting and almost put me off ever eating again. Yuck.
I’m beginning to wonder whether being so run down and exhausted is having an affect on my body physically. This is so not fun, guys.
I’m in the situation right now where all I want is a good cry, a big cuddle and lots of chocolate and films. But I think everyone has these days, and it really does suck. We just have to try and remember that tomorrow will be a better day!
I’m sorry this is such a down blog post, but I want to keep it real with you guys instead of pretending I’m upbeat, happy and bubbly all the time. I have bad days too, just like everyone else, where I just don’t feel like I’m good at anything, like I’m just one big walking failure. But when my “bad day” is over, I realise that I’m trying hard and doing the best I can, and in my opinion that’s the best thing you can do in life.
I’ll be back tomorrow with my usual upbeat posts, I promise 🙂
Lots of love,